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How Do I Live Without You...

Less than two months ago, I lost my dad to cancer. Everything just happened so fast; from the time he started chemo to when he passed away was 2 months… Things haven’t been easy, and I don’t know when it will get easier.

Some days I feel okay, but other days I just feel like crying. Some days I  just feel that he’s not gone, that he’s still here, and he’ll be back home any minute.  I just can’t accept the fact that I’m never going to see him again, it’s too hard.
I’m trying to cope with everything, but sometimes it seems impossible.
I keep telling myself and everyone else that I’m okay…but I don’t know if I am. At times, I really feel okay, I go to work, I smile, I go shopping; but at others, I just feel like crying, or angry, or I snap at people for no reason at all, or just in a ‘whatever’ mode.
I just feel depressed most of the time; at work I stopped going out to lunch with my colleagues because I just didn’t feel like it. I barely eat, I just have one meal a day…and I know it’s not…

Time For A Change

If you walk into my bedroom, you'd think you're walking into a 5 year old's bedroom. The walls are painted pink, I have a pink bedspread with colored flowers on it, and over 30 teddy bears on top of my 6.5 meters wide closet...everywhere you look, it's guaranteed that you'll find more evidence that it's a room for a 5 year old!
Last week, out of the blue, I decided to change the theme of my bedroom! I decided to paint the walls light purple and transform it into a grown-ups bedroom!
My room has been through so many transformations, from white to baby blue to pink and now, to soon-to-be purple. 
Although I love my room the way it is, it's time for a change...